Break down

So today was definately not a good day. I finally made an appointment to get my hair done and nails done. it was raining like a monsoon today and i couldnt do my hair and nails. then when i wanted to get some groceries, i lose my card. i couldnt deal with it. i started crying once julian was out of the way. its crazy being a mom and girlfriend, u tend to lose urself. i really dont feel like myself, i need a timing schedule to wash my ass. i dont know i love my boyfriend and love my son even more, i just cant seem to adjust fast enough. but i know i need to. and now my bf older sister is moving down here and i cant help but feel like the situation is about to get interesting. she is very needy and dependent, i just feel anxious about the whole situation. im just taking things in stride and trying to keep my head above water, but im drowning. i feel it.