Friday, November 19, 2010
I know
Its been awhile since i been here and i know with all the hustles and bustles of life and raising a toddler, its hard to get here. but im grateful and thankful that i am here. so much is happening in my life and i have to take a moment to reflect. reflect on Gods plan for me, reflect on the path that im going down and make sure that im living and doing the best that i can. being the healthiest person that i can. life has thrown me some curve balls and its not easy. this journey of life, has not been an easy one for me, but it has been fruitful. everyday my son is growing and getting bigger, and stronger. my relationship is becoming more solid. in between all of that i have lost some things, lost my relationship with my mother, lost some friendships, and at one point was losing out to depression. but im in a different place now. im strong, im beautiful, im a mother, i am love, and i am respect. with those things i will improve my spiritual life, my health, my weight, my goals, and my thoughts on what i need to do and who i am.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
The hair
so for the past few weeks, i been reading about naturally curly hair (there is a difference) and i was inspired. inspired to wear my hair out, in its naturally curly state.
i have been rocking twist out's, wash and go's, braid out's (hate them), and whatever in between. so far its aight. i been experimenting with different products (miss jessies, curly, olive oil, motions, taliah waajid, garnier fructose, mayo tx, good conditioners, etc) and really reading into what ingredients are in the products (mineral oil is obviously bad). and its been interesting, frustrating, overwhelming at times even. but the one thing i can say is, that im learning about my hair. i recently combed my dreads out and while it was liberating, it was also frustrating because i have been spoiled. for the past 3 years, i have not had to buy so many products, use a comb or brush, and doing my hair every few days just didnt have to happen. now im dealing with learning products, staying moisturized, wearing protective styles, using combs, brushes, curlers, oils. im detangling, finger styling, twisting, clipping, co-washing, sealing, etc etc etc.
so with all of that said. i wont be going back to perming, obviously, but i dont think i want to be doing all of this manuevering of the HAIR. so sisterlocks has caught my attention and i will research from beginning to end the cost, what to expect, the process, do's and don'ts. so far so good. who ever said going natural is easier or cheaper, does not know what they are talking about. on some level it is, on other levels, i dont think so.
i have been rocking twist out's, wash and go's, braid out's (hate them), and whatever in between. so far its aight. i been experimenting with different products (miss jessies, curly, olive oil, motions, taliah waajid, garnier fructose, mayo tx, good conditioners, etc) and really reading into what ingredients are in the products (mineral oil is obviously bad). and its been interesting, frustrating, overwhelming at times even. but the one thing i can say is, that im learning about my hair. i recently combed my dreads out and while it was liberating, it was also frustrating because i have been spoiled. for the past 3 years, i have not had to buy so many products, use a comb or brush, and doing my hair every few days just didnt have to happen. now im dealing with learning products, staying moisturized, wearing protective styles, using combs, brushes, curlers, oils. im detangling, finger styling, twisting, clipping, co-washing, sealing, etc etc etc.
so with all of that said. i wont be going back to perming, obviously, but i dont think i want to be doing all of this manuevering of the HAIR. so sisterlocks has caught my attention and i will research from beginning to end the cost, what to expect, the process, do's and don'ts. so far so good. who ever said going natural is easier or cheaper, does not know what they are talking about. on some level it is, on other levels, i dont think so.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Its been so long
well well well, its been so long since my last scribe, and i must say so much is happening. so much is going on.
since we last communicated, i have since moved to another location, my relationship and understanding with my significant other has definately improved to the max. i have lost some friends, and some friends have become distant, while others became closer. my son has turned 1 and has walked, stopped using the bottle, stopped with the pacifier, started and stopped with a babysitter. i have changed cars, no more solara (tearfully no more of my baby). but im definately in a better place with my mental, with my relationship, and where i would like to go in life.
right now i want to do my license, and phd/nursing (cna, rn).
i have accomplished working on my credit and now im ready for the next step of things. its definately not easy. i have been applying to new jobs since kaden was 4months old, now he is 15months old and im getting desolate. i dont know what else to do. and its funny, as julian career improves and he goes onto jobs that pay more in a better status, im here waiting. waiting for god to either tell me im not trying hard enough, wait my turn, or this is where he wants me. i just wish i knew. just wish i knew.
since we last communicated, i have since moved to another location, my relationship and understanding with my significant other has definately improved to the max. i have lost some friends, and some friends have become distant, while others became closer. my son has turned 1 and has walked, stopped using the bottle, stopped with the pacifier, started and stopped with a babysitter. i have changed cars, no more solara (tearfully no more of my baby). but im definately in a better place with my mental, with my relationship, and where i would like to go in life.
right now i want to do my license, and phd/nursing (cna, rn).
i have accomplished working on my credit and now im ready for the next step of things. its definately not easy. i have been applying to new jobs since kaden was 4months old, now he is 15months old and im getting desolate. i dont know what else to do. and its funny, as julian career improves and he goes onto jobs that pay more in a better status, im here waiting. waiting for god to either tell me im not trying hard enough, wait my turn, or this is where he wants me. i just wish i knew. just wish i knew.
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